I actually have access to a computer right now? WHAT KIND OF SORCERY IS THIS?! Ok time for a serious tone. As some of you might know I was admitted not that long ago into a rehabilitation center to deal with my mental illness. I have schizophrenia (its late im sorry if I spelled that wrong) and I have been dealing with it on my own for most of my life and refused to even admit I had that particular illness. But there was no denying that the people that were always following me but no one else noticed and the things they said but no one else heard weren't real. I have made so many bad choices in my life that I have taken a close friend and forced them away, fell in love and then forced her away, nearly destroyed a relationship, and tried to kill a person. (Thats what I mean by "snapped"). Why did I do all of this? Well as my doctors and therapists and psychiatrists have helped me come to conclusion, it turns out the voices in my head are caused my schizophrenia. One voice in particular has been very crucial in the ruining of my life and his name is The Follower. The Follower wears a black hood and is completely clothed. (This is why in all of my stories there is a man in black cloaks in such because even in my writing I cant escape him). He has talked to me over my life and helped me make decisions. He convinced me that starting an online account and befriending several people would be a way to escape my life and live a life of lies. Although that life seemed far more interesting than my own, it was a life of lies. Then the lies started to get bigger and bigger and soon it wasn't even my own lies I was just typing what The Follower told me to type. The whole thing was a setup, he said, we can just use these people and make a movie and then my real life would really get exciting. But I wanted to stay friends with these people and The Follower told me to use more and more lies to ensnare them but eventually everything collapsed upon itself and the people ran away from me, no longer able to stand what The Follower had created. And now I am here, typing frantically on a computer in the library whilst The Follower watches from somewhere. I don't know where but he is definetely there. I can never escape him but thanks to the help of medication and therapy I can stand up to him and he can no longer talk to me as much. See? I am literally insane but what could I have done? How do you tell a man in a black hood who has been following you and talking to you since you can remember no? Now I am determined and have only one goal in mind and that is to find someone I love, Avie. She was formally known as DaughterOfMirrors on dA and if you can tell me what her new account name is or where I can find her I will greatly appreciate it. The last thing I do before I perform hara-kiri (ritual suicide) is get closure and talk to Avie. The Follower tells me I will never find Avie but I don't believe him!